Finally…an evening to myself. One dog snuggled next to me, the other snoring in the corner, and ‘I’m a Celebrity’ on the television. I’m babysitting tonight and I’ve been looking forward to this evening all week. A few hours to myself to sort my diary or just sit and relax. Tonight though, I wanted to write a post about something that has been bothering me recently.
I adore this time of year, the lights, picking the Christmas tree, attending festive events and making gingerbread men. However, I’m admittedly feeling extremely overwhelmed and super stressed. Given, the end of the year is always a busy one. The little girl I look after has had her preschool rehearsals/nativity this week, along with our usual classes and attending some Christmas events. So, along with organizing my own life, and hers, plus everything in between, its really been quite crazy. And to be honest, I’m not surprised she come down with a rotten cold. I’m just waiting for it to hit me…
Now, without sounding too much like Scrooge, I’m really not in the festive/Christmas mood at the moment. I’ve gone completely blank with what to get friends and family members for Christmas, feeling pressured to spend money, make the decision to send or not to send Christmas cards, make this or that dessert or have something instead of the traditional roast turkey. Not to mention the social media side of things, I feel pressured and I don’t like it.
I’m sorry that this is a bit of a negative post, but I felt I needed to say it/write it out and let someone know how I’m feeling. I’ve made a conscious effort recently to stray away from social media and focus on me and being with family/friends. I feel my running can relate to how I feel right now, too. If I don’t want to run, I’m not going to and that is okay. I’m not going to put pressure on myself to go out if I don’t want to. It’s taken a few weeks but I’ve finally settled into a non running routine, enjoying getting more sleep and resting my body. It’s not been easy, but I know it needs to be done, as this is my only window to rest, before training starts in January for London, and I know I’ll regret it if I don’t make the most of it now.
Time is extremely precious, especially at the moment, so I plan to make the most of being with my friends and family. Laugh and have fun.