Being busy is not an excuse for my lack of blogs recently, but it is a fact. One challenge I am setting myself for next year, is to blog more, because I really do enjoy it.
As I sit here looking back at this god awful year, many positives float into my mind, which I’m putting forward and holding onto as we say goodbye to 2020.
Here’s a little bit of what’s been ‘happening’ recently…
Doing: Sat next to the crackling fire, lite up Christmas tree, tea and in my pyjamas. Warming up post freezing cold dog walk.
Hearing: The cracklings of the fire, and Beauty and the Beast on the television.
Drinking: Lemon and ginger tea…one of my faves, alongside Pukka ‘turmeric gold’.
Eating and Cooking: Anything warm! I’ve really been enjoying warm salads, with lots of roasted veggies and a grain or toast on the side. Soup too, however I don’t find it to be very filling. And coffee, always coffee!
I’ve also been experimenting with my sourdough starter in my baking and found two recipes I love to switch between – sourdough brownies, which you can find here and The Boy Who Bakes sourdough cookies. With the colder temperatures, I’m finding my bread is hard to prove, both at home and at work, but I’ve picked up a few tricks from a friend including using warm water instead of room temperature and proving the bread in/beside a warm oven. I’m lucky enough to have a good airing cupboard, so most of the time my bread goes in there!
Wanting: Normality back…even though I know we are far from it. Yes there are now 2 vaccines, but its not the end of this or a quick fix. We are far from that but chipping away slowly, so I should be more positive knowing that. I know we are all tired of this and that’s also making it hard to see the positives.
Looking: For 2020 to end!!! Haha! Gosh we are SO close now!
Deciding: What to bake…! I feel like I spend my free time thinking this, and I was kindly given a vegan baking book by a good friend this Christmas, so I shall be looking through there later!
Enjoying: Our Christmas tree. There is something about the smell of it, the fire crackling away, and a film on the television. A feeling of safety, warmth, comfort and happiness, dare I say it, during this hard time. I’m going to miss my early morning cups of coffee next to it before the rest of my household wakes.
Planning: Runs, bike rides and walks with the friends…when I think of the next few weeks ahead, they seem quite bleak and empty, so I am taking it a week at a time and these meet ups are something to get excited about and look forward to.
Watching: I’ve just finished On Pointe on Disney+ and I can’t recommend it enough. A docuseries about the School of American ballet in New York City, and the students who attend. Following their individual journeys, its inspiring, captivating and binge worthy!! I’m also making my way through Bridgerton, and am enjoying that too! Totally open to any recommendations, so hit me with them!
Reading: Jodie Picoult, A Spark Of Light. I’m SO close to finishing it and then I can move onto her new book, which my friend kindly sent me during our last lockdown before Christmas.
Wearing: A dress…shock horror! I felt like putting actual clothes on today, not active wear or sweatpants and baggy jumpers, or worse, my pjs…..!
Buying: A few little bits in the sales but that’s it. Oh and chocolate. Lots of chocolate for baking!
Craving: Travelling…at this point I don’t care where. I mean, a Caribbean island would be wonderful, but I would just love to get away and explore somewhere.
Loving: The frosty, crisp morning. Especially when I’m up before anyone else/the sun and it’s so quiet.
Playing: Catch up…with washing, blogging and the pile of clothes to be sorted in my bedroom…which admittedly I don’t have the energy for at the moment.
Savouring: These quiet days at home. If 2020 has taught me anything, its to slow down and enjoy the little things. A coffee at home, using that mixer that’s sat on the windowsill for years, not rushing around and enjoying whats on our doorstep – the countryside, mostly and all the exploring we have done this year just by walking the dog.
Feeling: Relieved that this year is very nearly over. I feel like I am crawling to a finish line, mentally drained and fed up, but having no other choice but to keep going. To keep getting up, showing up and remaining positive.
So here we are, just over 6 hours until the end of 2020, and I can honestly say I don’t think I’ll be waiting up to welcome 2021 in. I’ve never been a fan of NYE and right now I feel like I could sleep for a week, so I’ll celebrate by putting 2020 to bed early – just where it needs to be.
I realise I sound so negative, and although it’s been an awful year, there have been many positives. Being able to finally see friends and family who live further away, friends who have graduated and succeeded this year in many areas, I turned 30, I have more than a handful of wonderful friends, new babies arrived and more are due next year, I found out a lot about myself, spent more time in activewear than I ever thought I would, ran a small handful of virtual races including two marathons, and realised just how god damn lucky I am. I have the worlds most amazing, supportive and loving parents and friends, and that’s all I need.
So, before I start getting to emotional, and let’s be honest, the gin is calling my name, I’d just like to say thank you. To each and every single one of you. For everything this year.
Here’s to 2021, I’m very much praying for a better one! Enjoy your evening, be sensible and stay safe.