“Running is alone time that lets my brain unspool the tangles that build up over days” – Rob Haneisen.
For me, running is more than just a sport. It’s a time, as the quote above says, to let my brain sort everything out.
Organise, plan, think, de stress.
It’s also a massive part of who I am and over the last few weeks I’ve realised there will never be a replacement for it. Ever. The euphoria you get, in my eyes, can never be experienced through any other sport.
I am now 5 weeks post op and my recovery continues to be going well. It’s not been easy, there have been a few little bumps, but that’s to be expected. My hip has definitely turned another corner and I’ve very nearly got rid of my limp, stiffness has basically disappeared and I’ve got so much more range of movement. As I’ve become more mobile, and have to pinch myself that I feel so ‘normal’ this soon, I’ve noticed my need to want to move at my faster, pre surgery pace. I’ve found myself pulling back quite a lot and having to remind myself that right now, things need to continue to be taken slowly.
I’m extremely lucky that I’ve been able to swim and get on the turbo. Both equally dull – I take my hat off to you all for being able to sit on a turbo for more than 30 minutes…! But it’s absolutely better than nothing, and along with PT, Pilates and my rehab exercises, all have been really helpful for my recover so far.
But I miss running. So. So. Much.
I’ve noticed recently a lot of you who I follow, have mentioned how much running has helped your mental health. Something that running helps me massively with too, and right now that I can’t do it, makes managing things even harder. As I said, nothing will replace running, and it has been hard finding something that will help me switch off for a bit or allow me to release some stress, thoughts, sometimes anger and frustration or the adrenaline inside me.
This period of rest and downtime has definitely made me think of other ways, mainly for now, that I can manage my stress, anxiety and mental health. Running, although it does so much for me, is something I very much took for granted and relied on. To be able to lace up, get outside and put one foot in front of the other, in my eyes, is a privilege.
So if I’ve taken anything from this hip surgery, it’s not that it’ll enable me to run for many, many more years, but that it has taught me to manage things without running, is a MASSIVE part of who I am and that there will never be anything that will replace it.
Until I am told I can start running again, which fills my body with excitement, I shall continue to swim, when the water isn’t freezing; cycle on the turbo, until my brain is bored dead (although thankful to my friend for keeping me entertained with sorting my bike in front of me!) and walk with my mum, friends or myself and a podcast. Slowly and steadily, to get back to where I was.
I can’t thank you all enough for your continued support, kindness, cheers, love and being here for me. It makes this journey feel less lonely, knowing how much support I have.
Have a lovely rest of the week, run for me, enjoy it and let’s hope this sunshine stays!