“Run when you can, walk if you have to, crawl if you must; just never give up.” Unknown
A quote I keep very close to me at the moment. Recently, all I’ve wanted to do is just give up. I’ve felt overwhelmed, stressed and not myself. Wallowing in my sorrows is not the way forward, but I’ve found it hard to dig myself out of how I currently feel. I’m fed up and frustrated but I’ve come this far, I’ve got to keep going and can’t give up now.
Recovery, thankfully, is going well. I had my 6 week check up with the head physiotherapist from my surgeons team last week. She checked my wounds/scars, asked me how I was feeling, moving etc and I had a chance to ask questions. Running, the one thing I have my heart set on doing and my current motivation to do all my rehab, is still off the cards. I have to go back in 5 weeks for my 12 week check, where I hope to be able to get the all clear then. Until then, the rehab exercises, the walking, the cycling and the PT, continues.
Alongside all the physio, rehab and check ups, life has sudden taken off, become busier and felt very normal. I had a small belated 30th birthday party in my garden last weekend with close special friends and family. It was such a wonderful day/weekend. I was asked to be Godmother to Anna and Kyle’s baby boy, who arrived at the beginning of this week, I got to catch up with my godmother and, godson, who I haven’t seen in nearly two years and is quickly getting taller than me! The weekend was just what I needed!
This week, Cortney stayed and we had a very full on week. We visited Brighton, saw Anna, ate a LOT of brunches, caught up with friends and Cortney took on her first ultra – Race to the Stones! I supported her along the way with Charlie, caught up with friends and made new ones. Seeing this race from the other side was interesting, and I will never again take for granted anyone who stands on the sidelines to support, marshal and follow me around a race course. Seeing everyone take part in this race was really hard. I was meant to be doing it and although I was okay, it was still a very hard pill to swallow. I want to say a MASSIVE congratulations to everyone who took part – you are all legends!
Ending the weekend feeling grateful for those who are always here for me, no matter what. And those people know exactly who they are.
So for now, I keep going, keep showing up, keep smiling and not give up. I have my eye on the prize and I’m one step closer to it. As Dory says, “just keep swimming” and that’s exactly what I plan to do.
Have a great week everyone.